You wont see this till tomorrow and I just wanted to tel you im so sorry. Im such a bad sister and I had no right to call you all those things. I just love you and I feel like sometimes your just abandoning me and I get scared so I lash out. You know me I fuck everything up with Liv, Jordyn and probs others I just dont know how to shut my mouth but I shouldnt do that to you, I just run my fucking mouth and go to far and I know that a problem I know and I love you, your the only person I really have and I treat you like shit and idk why. I don’t want to ever loose you because I dont think I could make it I really couldn’t. Last year when all that shit with you was going on I was so scared you were going to do something stupid and I wouldnt have you anymore and that scared me to death and so to think you would be done with me brings me to tears, I dont want to be like you and Mackenzie yeah your friends or whatever but your not close, you cant tell her anything you guys fight I dont wanna be like that. I was already having a horrible night becaue I kept thinking of Lyd today and all the hate I get and I guess it just builds up because I dont tell anyone and especially not you because you already go threw so much you dont need another your little sisters problems on your mind. I just want you to know that I do love you and im sorry.